Requiem in Four Movements-A Healing Vibrational Spotify Playlist

A Private Healing Playlist

I didn’t make this for anyone else. I made it because my skin feels too tight and my soul feels too loud and music is the only thing that doesn’t try to fix me. This is a soundtrack in four movements. Like a requiem. Like a resurrection. Like a sigh.

I. Confrontation When I stopped running. When I let myself feel it. When I said: “Okay. You’re here. Now what?”

• 741 Hz – Cleanse & Heal Your Body

• Delta Waves – 0.5 Hz (Music from the Firmament)

• Max Richter – “On the Nature of Daylight”

• 396 Hz – Release Fear & Guilt

• Jóhann Jóhannsson – “A Pile of Dust”

II. Surrender There’s a moment when you stop fighting. Not because you give up—but because you realize this isn’t a war you win. It’s a transformation you survive.

• 417 Hz – Undoing Situations

• Agnes Obel – “Familiar”

• Ólafur Arnalds – “Near Light”

• Sigur Rós – “Samskeyti”

• Mary Lattimore – “It Feels Like Floating”

III. Release (shame, rage, guilt, all of it) This part is ugly. Beautiful. Necessary.

• 528 Hz – DNA Repair & Self-Worth

• Sophie Hutchings – “You Never Left”

• Hammock – “Turn Away and Return”

• Eydís Evensen – “The Light II”

• Binaural Beats – Alpha Meditation

IV. Becoming What’s left when the smoke clears? Me. Still breathing. Still a mess. Still somehow… sacred.

• 432 Hz – Earth Frequency

• Dustin O’Halloran – “Opus 55”

• A Winged Victory for the Sullen – “Steep Hills of Vicodin Tears”

• Julianna Barwick – “Look Into Your Own Mind”

• Grouper – “Living Room”

• 963 Hz – “Solfeggio God Frequency”

• Brian Eno –“An Ending (Ascent)”

You can find my playlist here

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